I am a highly sensitive person or HSP, and my central nervous system vibrates on a different level than what we consider normal. Stimulus is more enhanced with people like me, and even if we are close on a human level, every act toward me can go from good to bad. I feel the negative energy of even those who the world sees as the most wonderful people. I sense that façade or fakeness that people tend to put up as their front, when I know deep inside, on a soul level, you and I are not any different.

Beauty and aesthetics are things I enjoy, as that of an artist. Life overwhelms me, and I need more downtime than most people, and the stimulus of violence, whether in real life or the movies leaves me unsettled. There is complexity within me, commonly called neurodivergence (Scott, 2024). I am empathetic, even toward those I sense can hurt me in somehow. I do not enjoy watching people participate in verbal, physical, emotional, or mental abuse, but I try to keep my spirituality in check, all the time, thus knowing we all have diverse personalities.

I like richness in relationships and have high creativity. My nervous system processes are almost supernatural, but not on an otherworldly level, as compared to those who are normal, even though people that are HSP include around fifteen to twenty percent of the population. This term highly sensitive person or HSP is a term coined by psychologist Elaine Aron and specifically known as sensory-processing sensitivity or SPS (Psychology Today, 2024).

There are even thoughts of HSP including assets in life can be superpowers if learning how to control physical and emotional overwhelming. I cry with joy, and I respond deeply to other people’s pain. I remain alert for predatory people and animals, and it all may stem from early childhood and the environments I grew up in. There is depth in my mind’s processing, and I stay in my head often, but of course, unintentionally, and usually called out by people with less than a sensitive nature (Suttie, 2023).

Moving forward, I am finding boundaries and getting more involved in calming and creative activities like art and writing. You may seem like the greatest person in the world to everybody else, but to me, it may be of a different feeling that you may not understand. That is why forming relationships takes time with me.

Do not count it as a problem but as something valuable between us because every relationship, on all levels, has value to me in one way or another.

Works Cited

“Highly Sensitive Person.” Psychology Today. Sussex Publishers. LLC. 2024. https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/basics/highly-sensitive-person

Scott, Elizabeth. “Are You a Highly Sensitive Person?” Very Well Mind. 1 March 2024. https://www.verywellmind.com/highly-sensitive-persons-traits-that-create-more-stress-4126393

Suttie, Jill. “The Superpowers of Sensitive People.” Greater Good Magazine. University of California, Berkely. 8 March 2023. https://greatergood.berkeley.edu/article/item/the_superpowers_of_sensitive_people

Darkness surrounds me, yet I feel a sense of comfort knowing there is goodness inside. The warmth encompasses me from the outer cold, which the world is full of at this moment and time. I want to have the extra sense of precognition but also need it to be natural and allow me to wait without knowing what is in store for me. Making forecasts and predictions may often come true but it seems better when the unknown happens, and everything works out like it should. We prepare for the worst but hope for the best.

Opening myself up to what is possible and letting people with whom I feel comfortable come into my life. This complete life is an education from above, and this earth is our school for learning both easy and difficult lessons. All of us have free will and can make choices, whether they end up wrong or right, we usually get a second chance to turn those wrong decisions into good and correct ones.

All life and matter become encoded with mathematics, formulas, laws, and theories, which is the language of God and the universe. Everything and everyone come about within certain laws of physics, even on the quantum level. There is connectedness for me and a certain few other people, even when we are apart. It is a soul connection that cannot get broken. Family can be anyone for anybody, even if not of the same culture or upbringing.

Therefore, all life is from the seed planted in fertile ground as a sacred tradition, which is simple. Cocreation and procreation are similar yet different. Two architects can cocreate or codesign a structure or building while adults, of a different sex, can procreate or reproduce a child. Two or more people, who codevelop is a manufactured process while proliferation is divine. We must look upon people, even if they are older than us, as parental figures of a good father and mother.

Children who take care of their parents are a blessing and a reciprocation of that love they received from them as offspring. What goes around, comes around. We live in cause and effect, or more basically, with karma.

Frugality and minimalism are not something we think about every day. Even though I am trying to adapt to both ways, I am not there yet. I am learning not to buy stuff I do not need or use that often if at all. Let’s say, I enjoy fishing and like to go out and fish when I can, but in that respect, I buy about five fishing poles and reels, like for flyfishing, baitcasting, spin casting, spinning, or a heavy-duty pole and reel for tightlining bigger fish, like huge catfish, in swift water, an extendable cane pole for catching bream and crappie, and so on. Hence, you see I am not a minimalist fisherperson. That is just an example, but I would not have a different fishing pole for distinct kinds of fishing, especially if there is any specific kind of fishing I like to do.

Another example, of course, which validates not being minimalist like professional bass fishing. These guys put their life savings into boats, fish finding equipment, studying the weather such as barometric pressure and approaching cold or warm frontal systems from the west, and doing much research on the waterway, including depth charts compared to those previous weather irregularities for the day of the tournament and where to find the perfect locations for finding bass, depending on the season and day way before going to a tournament, where winning money is involved. It is their livelihood and becomes a science. For me, I would not get that much into it because it is just a hobby I enjoy for recreation.

Another thing about frugality is not buying cases of bottled water, which is a waste and not good for the environment unless you refill the bottles about four or five times, at the most. There are water purifiers out there if you are concerned about water quality. I also do not keep a bunch of canned goods or packaged meals that do not go in the refrigerator unless I use them within a couple of weeks. If I learned to eat beans and let my body adapt naturally to any discomfort or other events that go with them, I could eliminate red meat as a source of protein. The best diet for me, personally, would be meat and vegetables only without complex carbs, except brown rice, sweet potatoes, or something similar.

I have also just cut my phone bill from forty-five dollars down to fifteen dollars. I am eliminating subscriptions I do not use much or time out for a while I do like. I have learned the value of money, finally, but there is still much work for me to do, as I become more aware of addictions I may have like caffeine and learning to wean from it a little bit and put bigger intervals between having and stopping as early as possible before bedtime. I am not one of those people that can drink caffeine right up until bedtime, and sleep well all night long.

What I am saying is that not any of us are perfect, and to say that a coffee addiction is better than an alcohol addiction is not really helping solve the problem of any addiction you and I have. As a human, I often make excuses for my failed behavior.

I awakened within a dream called my life, made for me and for those to whom I invite. The colors pop brilliantly on random images giving me the perspective of an artist, and the words flow as is meant to be as that of an author. My mind blossoms with ideas of both simplicity and oddness, especially of my own making, thus not truly formed until action happens. Brilliance comes in shots of gratitude for the gifts bestowed upon me.

I understand the existence of all matter including the boulder sitting below the mountain that has its own vibrational frequency. I see all things as alive even in the dead of winter, as I, too, approach that season of my time here on earth. We, as the sacred ground, from which our materialistic body came molded individually from a grand master and plan. We are a mixture of stardust from bursting supernovas that occurred billions of years ago and the dirt from which millions have died recycled, infinitely. The atomic structure of one element makes it unique in whom we become.

Our image is that of our Creator thus giving us the gift of being imaginative in mind. Seekers of knowledge do not often find truth except through visions of the past and future merging into this mindful moment of now. We look for answers from past mistakes of similar resolutions. We predict things we are unsure of to satisfy the need to understand ourselves within the neural complexities of what we go through, psychologically. We try diverse ways of tying each other together and not accepting letting go of the physical love but making it deeper in our relationships.

We still retain animalistic qualities that hold us back from experiencing our divine nature. The divine feminine, of darkness but more grounded and down to earth than that of the divine masculine, which is more of an alien seed. Together they form the yin and the yang with opposing attraction, only for the benefit of keeping our species alive.

It is not subtle but complex of how we interact with each other, on a sacred level, even if it starts between a man and woman, platonically. Time either brings us together or tears us apart from each other, depending on the circumstances, which cannot become an excuse.

Love, for me, does not come easy. I know that I must work for every bit of it, and give it all to God, the One, who has all the answers to living a good and beautiful life.

As I gazed upon her beautiful eyes,

Something magical become of me.

Her exciting love for me never dies,

Known by similarly of us to let it be.

The passion rose like a flame inside,

As the solid ground started shaking.

We together must not accept deride,

Life joined eternal was in the making.

A heartbeat of two were synchronized,

Into a big spinning whirlwind diverted.

For heaven above a merge authorized,

Into a heavenly host we are converted.

That what God brings together does not part,

The two of us forever live in an ecstatic heart.

A dream was born from above,

Cloud sheds tears with a spark.

I lie wondering is this real love,

Lightning flashing in the dark.

I look in her smiling blue eyes,

Her soul wanted me at home.

A whisper from a spirit so wise,

Said it is written in God’s tome.

I could not refuse the Almighty,

Even though feeling not ready.

This time I could not be flighty,

Navigating the storm so steady.

I pressed against her lips kissing,

Feel the passion dwelling inside.

Several days later, I was missing,

God took me with him to reside.

He lectured me about my wrong,

My wings were not ready for me.

Heartbroken she is to be lifelong,

As a human I can no longer be.

Paying a price before taking flight!

We much too often externalize God, usually in the form of an older white-haired father figure. Why? I think part of it is being a male-dominated society for so long, where titles do not change easily. A King has more authority over a Queen, usually, unless you look at it subjectively. Look at a game of chess, where the queen has much more power than a king, and we are the pawns. Realistically, the women, or queens, in relationships are more influential and get things done in society.

Then, we come to another point, which is the great ‘I Am,’ also strictly for God. In a blasphemous way, we know if someone says, ‘I am God,’ or ‘I am Jesus,’ you would think right away this person is crazy. If you look at another context, any person can say, “I am, that I am,” logically interpreted as, “I am of value because I am providing a benefit.” Words, even from the Holy Bible, manipulated in any ways to where a preacher can lead his flock, just by what he says. In other words, I would rather follow a doer that does virtuous deeds, or puts their own good words into action, instead of a speaker or orator, who can, only, speak good words well. You may have a different view of leadership, I suppose.

Too, there exists a battle, between “the good old boy” network and “intelligent freethinkers.” What do we choose, Christian Nationalism or Liberal Socialism? I do not enjoy all the rhetoric of politics, and only having dualistic choices regarding this aspect of life. Prochoice and Prolife, for instance, and the argument attributed to it. The dichotomous asinine choice between Democrat and Republican. I have friends and family on both sides and still love all of you and them unconditionally, but to think I will post something regarding politics on social media is something I will not do.

I did not put these words together out of spite or to pick a fight but to let everyone know that the result of our free will is, sometimes and probably more often not, right, left, correct, wrong, but only God knows that answer. I know, we create our own future, by what we think, say, and do.

We become so righteous as to believe that deity controls everything, so everything we do seems justified by our piety. Why do we try to simplify it to that basic notion? We like to tell people terrible things happen because you did not have God in your life, or it was the fault of the devil. To me, that is the effortless way out without finding out the truth of what honestly happened, even though it could ruffle feathers in a religious community. We make decisions and know best because of what we might believe and dismiss the fact that it is part of life, so we must categorize it a bad and sinful act. Such detailed logic is more in line with the devil if you want to know the honest side of any compartmentalized act, thought or statement like that.

On a similar note, a person’s deity may not be divine but money or a passion for art. Money is king, or a god, the almighty dollar, or like you commonly hear, the root of all evil. Though, I must say there is good in money, and even though I am not an expert in it, it is in beneficial use for making a living and, sometimes, just to survive. Just because a person devotes more time to money or art than God, does not mean that person is evil. That is warped thinking. Interpretation of any kind of script can have a variety of viewpoints, and we must use our mind, heart, and spirit to delineate any of those analyses. Even if we are great at argument in defending our viewpoint or understanding of any script, ancient or modern, does not necessarily mean it is right. That is where constructive criticism comes in and having an open mind to understand why someone may be against your belief or limited thinking. There is stubbornness in people to not accept any other belief, thus we have conflict without reason, except to start a fight.

The best method I have found is observation and answering only in basic yes and no, with slight elaboration if necessary. I will do this until I have more facts and do more research to debate, what I feel is a one-sided statement. The devil is in the details, but so is God.